Another traumatizing day today...was waiting til we found out for sure before we posted anything, plus posting it would've made it even more real and I was already emotional enough not talking about it. So first thing this morning(PS another night of no sleep for me), Jiraiya's Dr said his blood work was showing infection from my chorioamnionitis, so he has to stay another night in the hospital to get more antibiotics. Then without thought, "but there's no reason for you to stay, you'll be discharged tonight. He doesn't know about Jack, he can't or this conversation would've gone a different way. Our nurse joins the room and the Ped leaves. I'm trying to form the right words...but its taking every ounce of control to not lose my sanity and flood the room with tears! I CANNOT leave this hospital in a CRV with Jory and no baby AGAIN! I will Not leave without my son!
Because Jory is so amazing he took the words out of my mouth and reminds our nurse that we've had to leave a hospital with empty arms before and I cannot and will not do this. She remembers and said she was sorry for the PTSD, she said she had already asked about boarding for the night but she will now make it her mission to work something out for us. Even if its just a couple of recliners in the nursery or hallway. I guess the upside of my meltdown was the three straight hours of uninterrupted privacy the nurses gave us. All 3 of us passed out hard, I even let Dragon stay sleeping on me(safely i promise!) the whole time. I slept about 1.5hrs but it felt awesome! After our nap we spent the rest of the day on pins and needles, trying to make a plan, yet trying not to tell about it. Finally 7pm comes and we're sure I'll be spending an uncomfortable night in a rocking chair in the nursery's nursing room, no dads allowed. But instead.............
I come out of the bathroom and Jory tells me, WE CAN STAY! I breakdown into tears, Thanking our nurses, I promised they were happy tears! Finally our streak of bad luck after delivery has stopped! So I've officially been discharged now but we're all staying in our maternity room tonight without hourly checks...not too shabby! Dragon will still get his regular every 2 hour checks and has blood re-tests at 3am and one last antibiotic run in the morning. If he passes the infection retest, we can all go home tomorrow! So thankful for all the moms who went home today making it possible for us to stay with Dragon!
PS I really need a shower bc post partum hot flashes mixed with PTSD sweats have kept me drenched all day!
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