So I missed a day already. Wasn't a good day either. All I have to say today is that I love my husband and am thankful for his partnership and everything he does for me. Tonight he came in to visit me while I was watching TV on my computer and he picked up my dinner dishes and took them to the kitchen. He definitely didn't have to do that. It's those little things that make a girl's day. I love you Jory J!

Jory has inspired me, he has posted a new blog every day (minus one) since the beginning of January! My last blog was the beginning of November, MY GOD!

So let's talk about what's been going on. Christmas was good, spent xmas eve and early xmas day at my mom's in Logan. Went to Jory's mom's in Salt Lake later that evening. Had fun giving presents to our families. Celebrated xmas again over new years at Jory's dad's house in Provo.

Went to the Doctor, talked about Clomid, he gave me a prescription and told me to use it when we are ready. I waited over 2 weeks to fill the prescription, figured hopefully Jory would be ready to start getting serious about getting pregnant in a few months. So we talked about it, he said he'd never be ready so I better just start taking it. =)
Jory is going to be a great father. He says he's scared or not ready, but when you see him with kids, it's a whole other Jory.
He's so sweet and tender and loving, even though he tries to put off that tough, I'm Joe Kool, "get me a beer biOtch then come and do your other job" sort of act. He's a tenderoni to the bone!

I know it's scary to move on to the next step in life, parenting, but we need to realize that we are getting older. If I didn't have medical problems, we could probably wait a few years. Even though we are already going to be in our 50's by the time our kid graduates.

So....I started taking Clomid January 6th. Practiced making babies around the time I should have been ovulating. Now I'm just waiting....January 31st, I will take my first pregnancy test.

It's funny cause Saturday and Sunday I had this weird feeling in my uterus area and kept giggling to myself that even if I was pregnant, there is no way I would be feeling anything until the 4th or 5th month. I told my secret to Sarah at work and she actually made me feel better, because she said a lot of women who start taking fertilitly drugs, start "thinking" they feel something. What's really weird is, after she told me that the feeling went away. I'm retarded I know.

OH..........GOOD NEWS, our very good friends' Robby and Regina are pregnant and have twins in May!!! I'm so excited and very jealous all at the same time! I love them, they will be so cute.

Also, on the baby thing, we talked it out and Jory will be the stay at home dad, working weekends while I'm at home. I'm sad that I don't get to do that, but maybe later on I will get to stay home while he works. I'm just worried that I will miss so much of my baby's life. But it's the best for now, Jory is unhappy with his job, and it will guarantee our baby will have a close relationship with their dad and that is all I ask for.

We are finally taking the steps to buy a house. We need to move fast because our lease is up at the end of February. I'm not sure we can find a house and close on it in a month. I'm sure if all else fails we can put our stuff in storage and stay at my dad's condo or with Jory's mom. We need to do to the bank to see how much we can be approved for. I'm so excited for our own house!!! I can't wait to mow the lawn in the spring and water the grass in the summer. Sit outside in the sun and privacy of your own backyard. Plant a garden and pull the weeds, I CAN'T WAIT!!!

I think that's good for now...Wait I didn't get a chance to respond to Jory's blog about spanking our child when they've been bad, so here's a quick response. I'm very thankful that you changed your mind and agree that spanking doesn't teach you how to be a human and walk to planet. It only teaches you to believe that violence is an answer to a problem. Violence is never the answer, it only teaches hate. We will have LOVE in our household, we will teach them to trust our judgement and respect us, as we respect them.

I love you Jory, thanks for the inspiration! I will also try to Blog nightly, however I don't always get on the computer every night, so I may have to blog while at work.

laters,

B.B. MaGee

Life is good other than the sickness

It's 2:36am here the in snowy Salt Lake City Valley, so I'll make this short.

I've been sick now for 11 days, getting very tired of being tired.
Life is good other than the sickness. Married life is the same as it was before we got married. People are always asking if it's different, or how's married life? It's the same!
And by being the same I don't mean bad, or thought it would have been better. For those that know us, we were together for 6 years before getting married. So we already knew each other's habits and such. It's kind of retarded that people ask that question. I used to ask that question, but it just doesn't seem relevant to a couple who have already been together so long. I don't have it as bad as Jory though, he's being asked the #1 question all newlyweds are asked. "Is she pregnant yet?" Do people just not realize that it's none of there damn business?!?! However, we have the best come back for that question. It will put their foot in their mouth! Not many people have the ability to shove it back in their face like we do! Of course I don't think a lot of people who have our come back would actually use it. But I'm just the type who really enjoys throwing shit back at people to hopefully ruin their entire week!

I told Jory what he needs to tell them when he's asked so very often, when are you having kids? That we CAN'T have kids! That will shut them up and make them feel like the shit they should for asking such a private question.

My parts are broken, I can't have kids on my own, and hopefully with help we will, but we will not know that until we make the decision to take the help. If we are really lucky it will be the help that is covered by insurance. Because if it comes to the $10,000 kind of help, we probably won't be able to do that. We don't have that kind of money.

To explain, like it's your damn business, however it may help others who have my problem.
I have PCOS, Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. We didn't find it out until September 2002 which for my body was a little late in the game. See I'm 26, going on 27 in 23 days and my "clock" has been ticking for about 5 years now. But at least we found out, I just thought my body was retarded! But I will continue my PCOS saga another day.
I have to sleep!

Good night to all.

Coupling

Are you aware that KSL TV has taken our right to choose what we want to watch away? That's right, they have refused to show "Coupling" a new fall tv show. Do they explain why? No! Any word about it? No! Absolutely nothing as to why. Do we know why, hell ya! KSL is owned and operated by the LDS church.
And the LDS church will not have you watching a show that has to do with sex, oh wait, Friends is on KSL, WOW! So is Will and Grace and they have homosexual characters! Oh but, I guess if the shows make a lot of money, then they must be ok.

Coupling was set to show at 8:30pm, so they can't say it's because it's not ok for kids to watch. Law & Order Criminal Intent is on at 8:00pm, have you seen that show?

Seriously now, are we not tired of having our rights taken away?

If you feel differently, that's fine. But I like my rights and will continue to fight for them.

If you agree, feel free to email KSL and let them know how you feel: tvgeneralmanager@ksl.com


Thank you for your time.