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Showing posts with label baby. Show all posts
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Friday, May 15, 2015
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
10:50pm 12/11/13
Another traumatizing day today...was waiting til we found out for sure before we posted anything, plus posting it would've made it even more real and I was already emotional enough not talking about it. So first thing this morning(PS another night of no sleep for me), Jiraiya's Dr said his blood work was showing infection from my chorioamnionitis, so he has to stay another night in the hospital to get more antibiotics. Then without thought, "but there's no reason for you to stay, you'll be discharged tonight. He doesn't know about Jack, he can't or this conversation would've gone a different way. Our nurse joins the room and the Ped leaves. I'm trying to form the right words...but its taking every ounce of control to not lose my sanity and flood the room with tears! I CANNOT leave this hospital in a CRV with Jory and no baby AGAIN! I will Not leave without my son!
Because Jory is so amazing he took the words out of my mouth and reminds our nurse that we've had to leave a hospital with empty arms before and I cannot and will not do this. She remembers and said she was sorry for the PTSD, she said she had already asked about boarding for the night but she will now make it her mission to work something out for us. Even if its just a couple of recliners in the nursery or hallway. I guess the upside of my meltdown was the three straight hours of uninterrupted privacy the nurses gave us. All 3 of us passed out hard, I even let Dragon stay sleeping on me(safely i promise!) the whole time. I slept about 1.5hrs but it felt awesome! After our nap we spent the rest of the day on pins and needles, trying to make a plan, yet trying not to tell about it. Finally 7pm comes and we're sure I'll be spending an uncomfortable night in a rocking chair in the nursery's nursing room, no dads allowed. But instead.............
I come out of the bathroom and Jory tells me, WE CAN STAY! I breakdown into tears, Thanking our nurses, I promised they were happy tears! Finally our streak of bad luck after delivery has stopped! So I've officially been discharged now but we're all staying in our maternity room tonight without hourly checks...not too shabby! Dragon will still get his regular every 2 hour checks and has blood re-tests at 3am and one last antibiotic run in the morning. If he passes the infection retest, we can all go home tomorrow! So thankful for all the moms who went home today making it possible for us to stay with Dragon!
PS I really need a shower bc post partum hot flashes mixed with PTSD sweats have kept me drenched all day!
Monday, April 11, 2011
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Friday, May 15, 2009
HOLY SHIT!
The other day one of my coworkers said "So is your daughter already born or when is she due?" My brain stopped on "your daughter". All I could hear over and over in my head was your daughter, your daughter, My daughter, My daughter? Our daughter, Our Daughter. OMFG! We're going to be bring home our Daughter! She's always been Willow or the baby, our baby but I had not heard or thought "daughter" until that moment. I had to remind myself to breath before I responded to him.
How crazy is that? We're going to have a daughter soon, any day really. Birthmom has an appointment today so we'll find out if she's progressed any. As of yesterday she's not been able to do anything but lay down because she's in so much pain. As much as I would like her not to be in pain, I pray that she holds on until the 23rd so we don't miss the birth. I just know that if she goes early, no matter how fast we drive, we won't make it in time. It's 11 hours with our regular stops from Phoenix to Logan. That doesn't account to the time it will take to throw the bags in the car and kennel the dogs. I really don't want to kennel the dogs! So if she can hold out, we can just leave the dogs home and Keara will doggy sit since she'll be home the morning of the 22nd.
I guess I should be smart and contact the kennel for info just in case we do get the call and have to drop them at the kennel until Keara gets home.....
Hold that thought...getting text from birthmom now. Says she went to hospital last night, was released. Went to doctor today and she's dilated to a 4, having real contractions now and doctor says she'll be having the baby this weekend!
HOLY SHIT!
So I sent a text to Jory, he never responded, so I emailed him, he's in a meeting, we'll talk tonight. I guess we'll be packing the car and either leave this weekend or wait for the call, then leave. It's so hard to know what to do. We don't want to leave this weekend, then sit around a week while the dogs are kenneled, ya know? My last day of work is next Wednesday, I guess losing out on 3 days of pay isn't that HUGE a deal, but all the money we can get, the better. Jory doesn't have next week off, he has the next week, so this will be an inconvenience to his coworkers, but they've said they understand, of course they understand, only a monster wouldn't understand.(more on that later)
This is birthmom's 2nd baby and I know most all 2nd pregnancies go much faster at the end then the first but I'm sure it's not 100% of the time. Right?
And of course now I sit here, wishing I could be home getting ready, calling lawyers(will on my lunch) picking up my background clearance letter, since I forgot to yesterday, talking to the kennel in case we need to use them, doing the damn dishes and cleaning the house for when we return, so much to do and I'm sitting here talking to retarded monkeys who think they're funny.
HOLY SHIT AGAIN!
Text from birthmom's mom, also known as my aunt, she's at the hospital and in labor!
Jory's still in his meeting, he can't respond, I don't know what to do. Freaking out! Should I leave work? Why am I still here? WTF should I do? I should leave right?
How crazy is that? We're going to have a daughter soon, any day really. Birthmom has an appointment today so we'll find out if she's progressed any. As of yesterday she's not been able to do anything but lay down because she's in so much pain. As much as I would like her not to be in pain, I pray that she holds on until the 23rd so we don't miss the birth. I just know that if she goes early, no matter how fast we drive, we won't make it in time. It's 11 hours with our regular stops from Phoenix to Logan. That doesn't account to the time it will take to throw the bags in the car and kennel the dogs. I really don't want to kennel the dogs! So if she can hold out, we can just leave the dogs home and Keara will doggy sit since she'll be home the morning of the 22nd.
I guess I should be smart and contact the kennel for info just in case we do get the call and have to drop them at the kennel until Keara gets home.....
Hold that thought...getting text from birthmom now. Says she went to hospital last night, was released. Went to doctor today and she's dilated to a 4, having real contractions now and doctor says she'll be having the baby this weekend!
HOLY SHIT!
So I sent a text to Jory, he never responded, so I emailed him, he's in a meeting, we'll talk tonight. I guess we'll be packing the car and either leave this weekend or wait for the call, then leave. It's so hard to know what to do. We don't want to leave this weekend, then sit around a week while the dogs are kenneled, ya know? My last day of work is next Wednesday, I guess losing out on 3 days of pay isn't that HUGE a deal, but all the money we can get, the better. Jory doesn't have next week off, he has the next week, so this will be an inconvenience to his coworkers, but they've said they understand, of course they understand, only a monster wouldn't understand.(more on that later)
This is birthmom's 2nd baby and I know most all 2nd pregnancies go much faster at the end then the first but I'm sure it's not 100% of the time. Right?
And of course now I sit here, wishing I could be home getting ready, calling lawyers(will on my lunch) picking up my background clearance letter, since I forgot to yesterday, talking to the kennel in case we need to use them, doing the damn dishes and cleaning the house for when we return, so much to do and I'm sitting here talking to retarded monkeys who think they're funny.
HOLY SHIT AGAIN!
Text from birthmom's mom, also known as my aunt, she's at the hospital and in labor!
Jory's still in his meeting, he can't respond, I don't know what to do. Freaking out! Should I leave work? Why am I still here? WTF should I do? I should leave right?
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