Another novel, not too bad though.

Everyday I sit here at work with every intention of updating you all on the Going's On of the Johnson's but I just haven't had the time or energy. So I expect this to be a novel, maybe I'll break it up in separate posts so you can scan through which parts you want to read and which you don't. I'm always thinking of you...even though growing up all I ever heard from my mother is how selfish I was, how I never thought of others. It's sad when you're own mother feels that way about their child. I think it's because she never and still doesn't know the real me. She saw/sees what she wants to see. But enough about my mother.

Kaycee's Walk To Remember, unfortunately for us, it was a BUST.
A. We forgot the damn camera.
B. We were 30 minutes late because the 101 Freeway was closed and I didn't research the detour well enough.
So I feel horrible even complaining but it wasn't organized very well. When we got there, I saw a bunch of people wearing the same Hawaiian shirts so I asked them where we register or sign in at and the guy says, "You missed it, it's over. The only thing going on right now is the car show". WTH? So Jory and I decide to walk in and ask someone else, we walk up to this booth that to me looks like an Information booth, apparently we were wrong. I told them I had registered us both for the Walk to Remember. The lady replied, "What?" I explain, online you could paid $18 for the Walk to Remember $20 for the 5k Run or $20 for the 5k Walk, regardless you got a tshirt. She said that she didn't know what I was talking about, but there was a registration booth out where the walk started and pointed us in that direction. We walked over and found no booth, so we decided to do the walk on our own, who knows maybe we would find the booth. We walked and no booth. At this point we were pretty disappointed in the whole thing. There were tons of families with kids but I wasn't recognizing anyone, which would be hard to do anyway since I've only seen their pictures on MySpace and the MISS website so we walked to the car, had a smoke and discussed what we should do. I really felt out of place, like I didn't belong to the club. We decided to leave.

I forgot to mention the shirts I made Jory and I to wear to the event. I was up all night making them, they looked pretty good. I'll post a picture so you can see.

Next, Our TTC Journey. We just finished our 7th month of Clomid/Femara and Pregnyl/HCG treatments and if we don't get pregnant this month then we have to stop for 3 to 6 months for Endometriosis treatments. Which will be medication, surgery or both. My blood test is Monday so we'll be finding out either next Tuesday or Wednesday if I'm pregnant. I'm guessing since we found 3 new Serous Cystadenomas at my last appointment, he'll want to do surgery and meds because that way we can kill two birds with one stone. It sucks to have to take a break from TTC because we already don't know how much longer it will be before the cysts change to Cystadenocarcinoma, ovarian cancer. And from what I've read, if the medication he chooses is Lupron, it can take anywhere from 3 to 6 months after you stop the medication to get a period. So really it could be 6 months to a year before we can TTC again.

It's scary. So many people have told me we should just adopt, which we will if we have to. But they don't understand what it's like to NOT have the ability to get pregnant and give birth to your own child, it's a completely different experience. It's not even just that. Once they take my ovaries, I will be forced into early menopause. The physical effects of menopause are rough enough for a woman of age, but for me in my 30's it's tragic! To lose your sex drive alone is something that would freak anyone out. I'm not and don't think I'll ever be prepared when that day comes for me.

Sara's Getting Married! I had been waiting for the day that Sara would meet her One and Only since she brought Jory and I together. We met her fiance Carl at my brother's wedding. He's super kool and funny. He and Jory got along great, which is always the ideal situation. Then they tell us they are getting married in Miami, FL. WTF? Florida? Apparently his family lives there. After we got home Jory was supposed to ask his boss if he could take some time off so we could to the wedding. We didn't find out until today that WE ARE GOOD TO GO! I'm so excited. I've only been to Florida once, back in 2003. We're hoping to talk our friends Todd and Darby into driving to Miami to see us that weekend. WOA! I just map-quested directions and it's a 9 hour drive! I doubt they want to do that, but maybe they can find cheap flights? That would suck to go all the way to Florida and not see them, Miami is much closer then Arizona. We'll see. We leave Wednesday Dec. 5th and come home Sunday the 9th. Maybe I forgot to mention, I'm a bridesmaid! I've never been a bridesmaid before. I can't wait for December to get here! Finally something to look forward to!

The Angelversary Project hasn't been completed yet. I need to go buy some pink and blue ribbon to tie around some of the Bear's necks because they look so generic without something. I thought about trying to find some tear shaped crystals or something that looks like it to glue under one of the eyes. I saw a teddy-bear online that came like that...they were $35 each otherwise I would just buy them. Then I need to separate the good ones from the not so appropriate ones and I'll take the others to the children's ward.

I haven't forgotten A Little Piece Of Jack. Now that it's been a year, well even at 6 months I already felt like it was too late. But we already spent all the money so I will probably send them out with a note or I don't know...this is why it hasn't been done yet! ARGH...maybe I'll mix it with October 15th, which is my next topic. Actually I'll be doing a separate post for Oct. 15.

I leave it at that for now....so I can go work on the Oct. 15th post and getting some pictures online.

Peace Out!